I’m nervous about my social security disability benefits

I’m nervous that my social security disability benefits will be denied, which they already have been once. We did go down to the social security office and file a request for reconsideration, and the lady we saw seemed to think it could happen. We won’t hear anything official for a couple of months.

In the meantime, I intend to get this blog up and running. If I can free myself from distractions, that is. One of the things about having a brain injury is it’s difficult for me to focus on any task for a long period of time. So I’ll be trying to write an article, and my mouse will happen to wander over to my fantasy football league. Or Facebook. Or Pinterest. Or, or, or. You get the point. On the one hand it’s incredibly frustrating. But one of the few good things about having a brain injury is I’ll usually forget about whatever problems I have pretty quick.

Ian working on his computer

Ian working on his computer.


The thing that frightens me the most is my lack of independence. I am totally dependent on my Mother, when I didn’t used to be. She isn’t getting any younger, either. I suppose she isn’t changing my diapers anymore, which is definitely a good thing, but we’re not too far removed from that.

Realistically speaking, what could I do for a living? That’s the other thing that scares me about my situation. I have next to no skills, unless you count writing, and I have nobody to blame but myself for that. If I hadn’t screwed around so much in college and actually went to class, who knows where I’d be or what I’d be doing. Probably not still living with my Mom at age 31, one would hope.

What does the future hold in store for Ian? I don’t know. And I’m hesitant to find out.

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  1. Andrea October 1, 2013 /