I overdosed on Xanax on June 26, 2009, when I was 26 years old. This left me in a coma for a couple of days, followed by 6 weeks in intensive care, then another couple of months in physical therapy hospitals and nursing homes. As a result of my overdose, I now have a brain injury.
This blog is going to serve as my message to anyone else who wants to try Xanax. For those currently taking it, and for others who might happen to have a brain injury. Also people who are curious about what it’s like dealing with a brain injury.
My Mother will also contribute to this blog, as she has been the one person there for me through everything. She helped me to the toilet, drove me doctor’s appointments (when I was still in a wheelchair), and all the things in between. I can’t begin to say how grateful I am for her.
It took me three and a half years to acknowledge that I had a brain injury, and even longer to join a support group. Joining the Pinellas County Brain Injury Support Group was one of the best things I could have done. There I talk with people who have gone through many of the same things, though I am sure I’m the only person who overdosed in the group. Most of them were injured in car crashes.
Medically, I’m doing so much better now that my disability payments are in jeopardy of stopping. That’s great news for me physically, but not necessarily financially. And with my short-term memory not functioning as well as it used to, it’s a problem if I want to go back to school or get a job.
It is interesting that, since my injury, I’ve become much more in tune with nature. I can’t bring myself to eat meat, and I have a new-found respect and love for all living creatures. A few days ago I saved a cockroach that was crawling across my bedroom floor. I picked him up on a paper towel and carried him outside, because I couldn’t bring myself to kill him.
I’d like to hear from other people with brain injuries, and to find out if some of the things I’ve experienced are true for them as well. Feel free to leave a comment. We may address some of the things you mention in the blog!